Sunday, November 30, 2008

At Some Point

At some point; I grew too tired to go out and meet the famous people I used to love, and instead stayed home to cook a three course meal.

At some point; I stopped laying in bed dreaming about how I could become a back up dancer on some singers tour, and instead started dreaming about a new dresser.

At some point; I ceased trying to make everyone like me, and began to like myself.

At some point; I was no longer taking random vacations for fun with friends, and was instead saving for months for an overnight trip to San Antonio.

At some point; I did not have to talk to my parents before every decision I ever made, and took the responsibility upon myself.

At some point; I didn't know where all the drink specials were every night in the week, and became more concerned about the calorie content.

At some point; I stopped looking for a new car, and started enjoying having my older one paid off and running.

At some point; I quit walking so fast, and actually noticed the beauty of the leaves turning.

At some point; I gave up what might of been with old boyfriends, and began to realize what I deserved in a new one.

At some point; I got away from reading all the gossip sites, and started really paying attention to the news.

At some point; I learned instead of telling people what I though, sometimes keeping my mouth shut and complaining later was the best form of action.

At some point; I halted buying everything I wanted at the grocery store, and started buying only the things I needed.

At some point; I realized everyone in my family wasn't going to be around forever, and I started knowing the pain of loss.

At some point; I noticed if I didn't make it to my parents every holiday, life would go on.

At some point; I acknowledged that I had to let go of my childhood dreams.

At some point; I learned you really can't go home again.

At some point, I grew up.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Absolutely beautiful, Jewels.
It's painful to grow up, but it feels oh, so good to stand on your own two feet.

Keep walking.

Liz said...

I'm so over this "growing up" thing! Good for you for the embrace of reality! I'll let you know when I get there! Well...I AM there, I'm just not taking it well!

Carrie Maxwell said...

julie, i love this post.

i really don't know why your blog is called senseless jewels... you're the most sensible person i know. really, you are.

i'm kind of with liz, i haven't embraced growing up yet. i still prefer prez to MSNBC. :D

Anonymous said...

Great poem. There is a lot of wisdom in it.

Anonymous said...

At some point; I stopped looking for a new car, and started enjoying having my older one paid off and running.

This is a great lesson in life to learn.

Anonymous said...

I don't get it, Carrie?
Prez?
I'm so confused...

Jewels said...

I think she is referencing a Mr Hilton and forgot the "E"

Maybe "At some point" we will improve typos - doubtful though.